I need help with my personal life. I just don't know anymore?

O.k well my parents are completely strict and ican't stand it anymore. iget pissed off and go to my room to cool down then pissed off again. and this repeats again for the rest of my life. im tired of it iwant out ! it's just driving me crazy, they won't listen or anything they just ugh ! and ihave this boyfriend and my parents don't know about him just my cousins and sis and friends. and well im older by 2 or 3 months and a grade level more than him ima enter high school and he isn't and things just get shitty. as in idon't get to see him much anymore or talk to him much anymore cuz of our parents. and im beggining to think that things might end between us and idont ever want that. ilove him alot and well iguess he does too. we try to get together but well as i've said before things are shitty. ineed help with all of this how to deal with it and how to be happy again if possible